Sunday, April 01, 2012

Things I've learned along the way

Sometimes, this food journey feels like I'm having to move carefully from one stepping stone to another. I can't stand still, or I could slip and fall back in the water, but it's hard to watch your step, keep your balance, and move forward at the same time. Claiming new ground is never easy.

But I have learned a few things along the way.

I've learned that writing down what you eat keeps you honest.  I learned that on some days, I literally ate three times more than I needed.  That's pretty eye-opening.

 I've learned that I can live without Diet Coke.  In fact, I can live quite well with it.

I've learned that my body has not forgotten what hungry and enough feel like, and that food tastes really, really good when you're hungry.  Not so much when you've already had enough.

I've learned that I'm not good at eating around other people, that I still tend to eat because it's time to, and that I'm still a card-carrying member of the Clean Your Plate Club and that I need to be careful about what winds up on that plate to begin with.

I've learned that exercise will not kill me and that I will probably never get enough fat-free Italian dressing.
So I'm learning. Learning to let go of some things and hold onto others. I love the idea that someday I may not have to think about all of this so much, but so far my experience says no.  However, in the hope that someday I WILL be able to trust my instincts with food, I'm claiming this picture.  I don't know why, but I see freedom in this picture.  I see peace, I see calm, and I see freedom. 

And here's a picture from today. I've also learned I can wear horizontal stripes.

1 comment:

Sheila said...

I'm so happy to be reading this. Can't believe we haven't talked about it. So much else going on...

I will say, as someone who has not had the same journey as you regarding health and weight, that I've learned I have to think about it. I don't know that anyone can maintain good health (in our culture, at least) without thinking about it and being pretty intentional.

I just remembered Uncle Bud telling us in chorus that we should never do anything from habit, it should always be intentional.

So maybe it's developing the habit of always living intentionally?

Well, it's getting late, and I still need to prove I'm not a robot and choose an identity, so I'll stop there, except to say again I'm glad for this way in which you are moving toward freedom. :-)