Friday, July 17, 2009

Lately


I love words and do not take them lightly. I am well-read and have a fairly extensive vocabulary. I love mulling over concepts and possibilities, looking at things from a variety of angles, and discussing options and "what ifs" and "maybes." When I say, "I'm not sure how to say this," it's a pretty big deal.

I'm not sure how to say this.

I can say that I'm on a thought journey with a renewed desire to seek Truth. I can say that I was recently reminded of our false separation between sacred and secular and that everything is sacred. I can say that I've been very aware that my thoughts and views on some very accepted beliefs are not in sync with those around me, and I can say that that makes me wonder if my view of God and redemption and forgiveness is also very different from theirs.

If this makes me sound depressed or angst-ridden, I want to assure you that I am not. The fresh realization of the sacredness of each part of life also causes me to see beauty in everything. A simple story reminds me of God's love. A tale of good-versus-evil that some would ban brings tears to my eyes as I see pictures of Jesus' sacrifice for me laced throughout the story.

Even a child's tale can bring me to tears because of the beauty of love, hope, forgiveness, joy, and new beginnings.

I hope that I can find words to express the details. When I do, I will share them here with you.

3 comments:

pk said...

Wow. You've put into words some of the very thoughts I've been thinking, and "felts" I've been feeling. Well, except for the depressed and angst-ridden, 'cause I have felt twinges of both. :-) I'm also reading Foster's Celebration of Discipline. Interesting. Guess we are kindred spirits on some level. Please keep us (me) posted as your journey progresses.

GodsOwn/Bernice said...

Read your post and you made me "stand still" and think deep.......
The picture made me remember walking in a forest when i was back home.....
That was a journey i would never forget and i was so proud of myself to finish it and on this journey i saw so much of God's beauty amazing......!!

Stephanie said...

Beautiful post. I want to share your journey, dear friend.